Board Thread:General Discussion/@comment-24140363-20140727101435/@comment-24140363-20140925031355

Okay. Guys, please. I never intended to turn this forum into an argument. Yes, I have fuelled it - but I am not the only one. Yes I have contradicted myself on occasion, but those occasions have a point them; and I had hoped someone could see through my flawed way of writing and understand but I've struggled to make the point of this forum clear. I don't want to fight. I hate fights. Fights are the reason that I sink into depressive states and want to end the pain. I don't want to do it anymore. And clearly whenever I end up commenting on a forum on this wiki or defend someone's comment I get pulled into an argument and become one of the to or three main spearheads.

As a result I'm asking you now if you want to keep this up, or do you want to close the forum down? I'm thinking of never making a comment again because clearly this is just causing me pain and other people anger and frustration. I'm sorry if I've frustrated people as that was never my intention.

I stupidly thought by creating this forum I'd have an element of control, that I could list what people thought CONTROL was. But I was stupid and talked about 'noting'. I don't believe that it wastes anyone's time if I note something. If I note it, the theory discussion ends - usually it is said to end an argument or debate. I want to acknowledge peoples' ideas and theories and make them happy by acknowledging their voices, and defending them as far as I can when they're put down.

I should say wanted. I don't want that anymore. I just want to be done with all this bickering. It doesn't feel constructive and just makes me sad. It feels pointless. So I think I'm done.